Many years ago I began writing poetry with the pen name of Serenity and my explanatory poem was:
Simply call me Serenity
For that is my life...
The name given me
After much pain and strife.
I was raised in the deep South in the generation of ¨children should be seen and not heard, ¨ and ¨ladies don´t raise their questions or their voices¨.
So yes, I was shy and did what I was told, as I´m sure many of you did. And I never spoke my truth if it was different or could in any way be seen as a contradiction to what was the norm.
This inadvertently led to some bad situations where I was not protected as I should have been. Where I did not speak up or out and I suffered the consequences for years. Maybe I will speak more about that later, but for now I am focusing on my ¨new normal.¨
Low self esteem over the years led me to some rocky and abusive marriages where I felt I had to fix everything and everyone. I was last on the to do list if at all. If I was asked where I wanted to eat or wanted to do, I always choose what I felt the other person wanted regardless of what I truly wanted.
To compound my problems I recently had surgery and the anesthesia left me with extended short term memory loss. I couldn´t remember the simplest things and was making serious mistakes in my job. Compounding this was the stress it created which led to muscle spasms and excruciating pain. I was forced to go on disability years before I planned to retire.
Then I found NeurOptimal® and I was able to correct many of the bumps in the road of my life. It helped my central nervous system self adjust and my short term memory returned. My stress subsided, my sleep improved, my pain lessened and I found my voice.
I have learned to speak up for myself. I have realized I have an important place in life and I take part in decision making. I am a person of value. Gone is the anxiety of saying the wrong thing or someone disagreeing. I am now sharing this opportunity for others to create their own ¨New Normal¨ and learn of the joy life has to offer.
I have learned to Speak my Truth.
What about you?